I Did It Again

The clock is ticking as time goes by

The wallpaper with fish on it becomes distracting

Everything is on my mind

I get annoyed, frustrated, angry, and then tired

I want sleep and rest, and then I’ll try this again

I go to leave but know I can’t

Without this done this consequence will be great

I write a few lines then stop and wait

I try again but still I wonder

Could this be better?

Could I try harder?

This letter is important, this letter has meaning

With every key I press my fate is decided

Procrastination is not my friend

It begs me to wait just one more day

I give in then regret fills me

With every second I wait my chances go down

I know I can do this

I know I have to try

How did I let it get here?

Why didn’t I try sooner, I wish I did

My contacts begin to blur and burn

My eye stings from the harsh fluorescent computer light

I’m three Mt. Dew’s in but I still feel no relief

This overwhelming exhaustion is starting to get to me

The word count feels too long the assignment to much

I type 5 more lines then drift off again

I wake up, it’s been 2 hours

How could I fall asleep?

I need to get this done

I type franticly my words become moosh

Nothing makes sense

I delete everything and start over again

I’ve learned a good lesson

I swear I’ll never do it again

I laugh out loud knowing I’ve just lied

Of course I’ll try this again

Continually I believe I’ll always be good at this

Lies, lies, lies

I try to deceive myself

Sometimes I succeed in the façade

I believe it’s all true

I tell myself it’s not obvious, it all looks the same

But I’ve learned over and over

Never, ever procrastinate